Hi there! I'm so major major excited to really write in here. Promise. Well in this first part. I've gotta tell you REASONS why I went back to NLAC.
1. Homesickness
Like yes. I've prepared myself already for the worst. In the sense that, " Mas mahirap ang academics dito. Nagbabagsak sila. " But this is something I forgot. I'll be missing my family the most.
This is how my life worked out during the 5 days of staying in the dorm and in the university:
We are 12 in a room. I woke up @ 5 or 5:30am. I will take a bath then change. Eat and brush my teeth. Then go to school. In school, from the 6th floor I gotta go down to the other building in the first floor. I have friends but I can never talk to them the way I used to be with my highschool friends. I can't laugh hard and loud. Then after school I would go back directly to the dorm and do my neccessities. 7pm is the curfew. During the night, we have a study period from 7:45 to 9:15 that should be consumed! NO TV. NO INTERNET.
Monday afternoon when I started feeling this. Whenever I think of my mom, I easily cry. I don't know why. This is the time when you would feel their worth the most.
2. Religion
I already thought about this and I said to myself, " I can. " The scenario is that they always do the sign of the cross! As in. And I'll never ever do that. Then one time, our teacher asked me to pray. So I did not responsed cause I was shocked and I just said, Let's pray. But before I would begin she said," in the name of the Father..." Haha!
Moreoever, I noticed that their prayer was memorized. Can I say, " Where's the essence? "
3. Responsibilty
Yes, I admit. I put aside all my responsibilities as a Councilor when I left. Actually, we didn't have the awarding yet because of financial matters. I just realize that it would be easier if I am here. I could attend the session and be excused. unlike in SLU, very much strict. And as they said, even though you are excused and you will take a special quiz/exam cause you missed it. Better not take it cause it's very special, you would get ZERO.
Before transferring, I've consulted my family especially my mom and we had a heart-to-heart talk. I was touched with how they understand me.
Sabi nga namin ng ate ko. OO, SIGURO MAKAKATIIS AKO. KAYA KO DIN YANG ACADEMICS. PERO PAANO NAMAN YUNG SOCIAL AND SPIRITUAL LIFE KO DIBA?
YOU ONLY LIVE ONC. IF YOU'RE NOT HAPPY AND YOU CAN'T, WAG MONG PAHIRAPAN YUNG SARILO MO.